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TAPKAE.com: 10 years on the interwebs!

2012 is here! It was just around the end of 2001 when the first live versions of TAPKAE.com were put up. I don't really have screenshots, but at first it was just a promo for the CD Receiving. Now instead of pitching the sale to all who enter my lair, I am able to offer the SoundCloud approach—all downloadable with liner notes and all, and the ability to comment on the audio itself. Nifty!

In the winter-spring of 2002, TAPKAE.com finally did appear in a pretty elaborate first incarnation, something that is rather embarrassing to think of now. But there you have it. Ten years of TAPKAE.com. It's moved from a pretty self indulgent promo for my recording to a pretty self indulgent record of my life and thoughts in a way I never ever anticipated. Consider it the full length version of my epitaph, suitable for those who are detail freaks.

Raison d'etre

I have found that the very feeling which has seemed to me most private, most personal, and hence most incomprehensible by others, has turned out to be an expression for which there is a resonance in many other people. It has led me to believe that what is most personal and unique in each one of us is probably the very element which would, if it were shared or expressed, speak most deeply to others.
—Carl Rogers

We may misunderstand, but we do not misexperience.
—Vine Deloria

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"I don't see how anyone would want to read it all for fun." —Robert Fripp

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Friday
Dec022011

Post Thanksgiving

I'm just thankful that Trish and I are in touch. What a refreshing take on things, even as she's newly widowed this year, and I've been the black sheep of the family for so long. She sent me a DVD of pictures of her and James, covering a sample of the 15 years they were together in an alternate universe only about six hours' drive away, but in many ways a world away. Funny, I never really thought of myself as having a sister in law, but now I'm kind of intrigued by discovering this new sprout of relationship open to me now and what it could mean for a new era in at least understanding family members in a new way, if not trying to restart things another time with a few who typically have not been so close. But even that feels like a nicer thing, considering the usually toxic relationship with some who have been too close. 

Gratitude for a feeling of newness to something that isn't new at all. This is the resurrection, folks.

Tuesday
Jul042006

10 Years Later

My grandfather Norman died on this day ten years ago.

He wouldn't understand me today.

Same as before.

None of my family does.

Not much family left.

I'm free.